I glanced at the calendar and with a jolt realized that in two weeks, I would already be married! Though I have had enough time for it to sink in, it still feels a little weird. It feels strange that with just one ceremony, a lot of things would change overnight. When you sit and think about the magnitude of the whole marriage thing, it does tend to overwhelm you.

Gone will be the days when you could be as irresponsible as you wished and still run to your parents when things went wrong.

Gone will be the days when you could be wild and carefree and not give a damn about what the rest of the world says.

Gone will be the days when you could harbour secret crushes and have hour long conversations with your best friend about it.

Gone will be the days when your independence and freedom was something you took for granted.

Sigh……

Suddenly, there is too much pressure to grow up, to behave.

Suddenly, you realize that your blunt and straight forward behaviour is an impediment to building relationships.

Suddenly, you are required to marshal all those (hidden) reserves of patience and diplomacy to manage and deal with different equations and people.

Suddenly, you are required to transform from a girl/kid/tomboy to a woman.

Why then am I marrying??? you might ask.

Well, because you realize that life moves on and change is the natural order of things.Because you realize that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.Because you realize that at the end of the day, after all the socializing and partying, there’s a vacuum which only he can fill.Because, you realize finally what your parents have been telling you from quite some time.Because, you realize that even though you are scared and having panic attacks, you know that this is what you want.

Atleast that’s what the saner part of me reminds me when I have managed to calm down a bit after I am done with the freaking out stage

So, to all my friends, consider yourselves forewarned….Be ready for those “OMG what am I doing” midnight calls and “I can’t do this” frantic early morning calls

P.S: Happy valentine’s day everyone